Feel a bit better - off today and it is sunny

 I feel a bit better today. I am in Alaska and not sleeping very well. The sun doesn't even go down until after 9:00 which makes it hard to even feel tired when it is time to go to sleep. My daughter and I had a great day working at the shop together by ourselves yesterday. When we got off we went to the tiny local store and paid $100 for stuff to make Mexican lasagnas, ate that along with some fresh crab, walked her dog, and went to bed. Now I am struggling with if I should get a teaching job here in AK. If I retire from my job and"double dip" I could make $50,000 more a year which would be super helpful for trying to find a house to buy in Juneau. I don't want to give up our Colorado house but know we will be spending a lot of time in Juneau as my daughter is pregnant and need a place to live. Kieth and I need to figure out what we want to do. We are off today and it is so sunny! I think we are going to go paddleboarding. This is the crab we ate and this is how light it is at 10:30 at night here.














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