Mid Life Melodrama

I have no ideas where to even begin. I am a 55-year-old woman who has two wonderful adult children, a husband who adores me, a good job as a teacher, and a nice life.....but I NEVER stop worrying about what others think of me! I obsessively worry about what I say, how I act, and how I come off other others. I am in constant need of validation, acceptance, and love. I desperately need people to need me. I am sure everyone feels this way to some extent, but my need is over the top. It has gotten to the point of almost mental debilitation. I make a manic decision to do big life things if I feel it will get me that acceptance and love, especially from my children. I lose sleep because I am constantly worried about what I said or did the day before which is never that bad but I blow it up in my own head. I quit drinking 5 years ago, that is another story, and I thought all of these feelings of inadequacy would go away. I was diagnosed with General Anxiety Disorder and mild OCD. I have tried...